Today is the day before the day before an exam that like always will get me on my toes the day before. But on the d-day will have me relaxed as ever, strange how that works. Anyway, today has been relaxation all the way, out by the lake with friends. Sort of the countryside where the key is left under the front door carpet. Where you greet all how passes you by whether you know them or not. And where a subway to a suburb is the way to get killed according to the locals. And I love it. Soothing for your soul and energy boosting for the spirit. So when studying for an exam in that surrounding, it makes it so much more efficient.

Back in after the day in the country. And by the computer I feel that life treats me well and even if I am not the best to treat life of what I deserves I can say that I am following my hearts inner voice I believe. Knowing what your heart tells you needs practice and a quite room. I am trying my best to hear the words and sometimes I get green light but however still don’t listen to red and yellow. That´s where the practice and trust adds to the listening inwards.   Anyway… to know I am following what I think is right will hopefully in the end show its real face. For now it’s all I can do.

This month I am financially broke. CSN will only pay me for three weeks of school, which, I know, happens every year. But this year I wasn’t able to work that month I needed to get money for this month. See I was overseas. I don’t even have money for all my bills so if you have an idea of how to get hold of some without having to sell myself on the street nor the internet I´d be the happiest ever. Next month too will be financially crucial but I will live with my mum, and I will get about 1000 SEK for a week of renting out my flat in Gävle. And also my mum has promised she will then pay for food ,after living through a renovation she came across of some extra. So she will help then.

On Saturday I and a bunch of friends will go to this festival, this festival of stand up. Free of charge and the best fun ever.

Now I will, without really have said anything that matters, go and say “later”!